Advice

Advice from my host sister:

Me: This week I just feel sad.
Sister: Are you homesick?
Me: No, I'm afraid that when I go home, everything will be different and I will be the same.
Sister: Don't worry about tomorrow.
Me: Its hard for me to trust that God has a plan for me.
Sister: When we trust God, he always provides for us. When we don't trust God and pretend like we don't need him, he only answers in a small way. We didn't really ask him for help. When we trust him with everything, when we need him, his answer is big and amazing.

I have a lot of dreams and expectations for next year. I'm afraid of the expectations people may have on me. Someone told me recently that your first year out of college is always hard, no matter where you are, because you have to face real life- all its possibilities good and bad. My sister's advice reminds me that although life is complicated, faith is simple. Faith is simple even when we don't have our lives all planned and when our faith isn't always strong. We were made for simplicity- knowing God and being ourselves. Lesson #3984 learned in Cambodia: Don't over think it. We've been given grace. Don't worry about tomorrow.


Also- I now have plane tickets from Phnom Penh to Pennsylvania for my re-entry retreat with MCC and from PA to home. I arrive home on July 26th. Time to finish strong and then come home to all the people and things I love and who love me : )